So i went out the other night and i kind of fancy my mate, lad in my classes, and we get on so well, same music taste everything, so the night out was going great, he doesn’t know i like him (liked) and neither does anyone else. At one point he has his arm around me resting on my shoulder and my head is leaning on his, not in a weird way, like all our mates were there, we’re all good mates so it wasn’t like “oh god what are they doing” anyway. And i had had my hoodie zipped up all night as I was concious of my plunging neckline, and the guy I like was like ‘____ you look wow, just take that off, it looks lovely’
Later on, we’re all dancing and my mate, who dissapeared earlier, reappears, she always pulls, been sleeping with a lot of guys lately, woo power to her ! and she is really good looking and really sexy, and i notice the lad i like eyeing her up (who wouldn’t) so i try and set her up with another one of my guy mates, equally as hot if not more so, but he’s too shy. So my OTHER mate (a girl this time) whispers to the lad i like something along the lines of “go hit on ____ ” so he does, he hits on the slim, attractive sexy girl, they go for a drink and mysteriously dissapear.
I had been having such a good night prior to this. I just felt deflated then and I wanted to go home.
Of COURSE he would choose her over me, I just thought he might like my personality more, and maybe find me attractive as we get on so well. But no he went home with her, and it’s not like its just any girl, it’s my friend (who didn’t know btw so i’m not upset at her, i know it’s all me)
So when i got home i cut into my fat thighs and my fat stomach so many times, they sting so much still, and i’m going abroad soon with my mates, nothing shorter than knee length for me…